Monday, March 26, 2007

100!

100 RAND0M QUESTI0N SURVEY

1. 4th grade teacher's name:
Mrs. Cartledge

2. Last words you said:
"Besides, I'll probably have to edit the photos. I don't know how dark they'll be."

3. Last song you listened to:
Black Eyed Peas - Hey Mama

4. Last person you hugged?
Hannah (so long ago!)

5. Last thing you laughed at:
losers what don't know how to park

6. Last time you said I love you, and meant it:
Earlier today when I was talking to Hannah on the phone

7. Last time you cried:
Oy. Uh...2001?

8. Do you have a penis:
*checks* Yep, still there.

9. What color socks are you wearing:
Socks? What are these socks?

10. What's under your bed:
Boxes of Space Elves

11. What time did you wake up?:
Ugh. 8ish.

12. What's your least favorite ice cream:
Any kind with real fruit bits in it.

13. Current hair:
getting longer at the request of the Hannah

14. Do you have a fish tank, if so how big:
nope

15. Current annoyance:
my job

17. Current desktop background:
Skywarp

18. If you could play any instrument what would it be?
piano

19. Favorite color(s):
white/silver, grey/gunmetal

29. How tall are you?
6'3"

30. Current favorite word/saying:
Score!

31. Favorite Show:
Rome

32. Favorite season:
Winter

36. What is your career going to be like:
career? wha?

37. How many kids do you want:
0-3

39. Said "I hate you":
It's been a while.

40. Ever get into a fight with your pet:
not so much. just him whining a lot.

41. Have you ever been to New York:
nope

42. Been to Arizona:
nope

43. Been to California:
nope

44. Been to Hawaii:
nope

45. Been to Mexico:
nope


46. Been to Italy:
nope

47: Been to Ireland:
nope (I never get to go anywhere!)

48. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?
far, far too often.

49. Do you have a crush on someone?
yes. I'm dating said crush

50.

51.

52.

53. What book are you reading now?
Not much at the moment. Might pick the Silmarillion back up again.

54. Where is it?:
next to my computer desk

55. What is the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning?
(*^@#*&%*$&#@~!!!!1

56. How many rings before you answer your phone?
as many as it takes for me to get outside so I can get a signal

57. Future daughter's names?:
Hmm. Haven't put as much thought in this one. Catherine Marie, maybe?

58. Future son's names?:
William Harrison, Gabriel Thomas

59. What do you sleep with:
Not much. A number of pillows between 2 and 5. Depending on how soon I get comfortable. And on the better nights a certain lady I know.

60. What do you wear to sleep?
me boxers


61. Where are you:
my room, "The Geek Cave"

62. Where do you wish you were?:
Boone

63. Piercings?:
nope

S0ME EXTRA STUFF

67. Where are you staying tonight:
my room

70. Who is the last person that called you:
Hannah

71. Where do you want to get married:
Big old church with an outdoor reception

72. Have you ever drank:
Ha!

73. Hate:
Overrated as a fuel source.

74. Are you or have you Been In Love?
Yes and Yes.

75. Are you timely or always late?
Depends. I'm hardly ever on time for work. It's a shame I'm such a high performer that they can't fire me.

77. Do you like being around people?
I hate people. I like being around a few select persons.

78. Best feeling in the world:
Hannah


80. You a health freak?
not a freak, no

82. Are you lonely right now?
A little. Hannah's a little far away.

86. Do you want kids:
Someday

LAST 48 H0URS HAVE YOU?

87. Cried:
nope

88. Bought something:
some Sprite at work

89. Gotten Sick:
nope

90. Sang:
yep. it's been slow at work, so I've been able to sing along

91. Said "I love you":
yep. I love you, Hannah.

92. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them:
and have!

94. Moved On:
Moved on completely the first moment I held Hannah.

95. Talked to someone:
I work retail. I have to talk to people. Ick.

96. Had a serious talk:
In a manner of speaking, yeah.

97. Missed Someone:
Yep!

98. Hugged Someone:
yep

99. Kissed someone:
Yep!

100. Yelled at Someone:
Nope.

if heaven is on the way, we'll wrap your world around it

Sunday, March 25, 2007

What a Witty Title!

Wow. So it seems there's some catching up to do. Heh. When did I last post?

Hmm. Let's see. Since my last post I got a lot of stuff in the mail, the biggest of which were the Wireless N router I got through Best Buy at a ridiculous discount and some stuff for Hannah. And it's pretty much just been work and talking to Hannah all the time for me during this week. I got paid Friday, which was terribly exciting. The biggest news of late, though, is the shiny new lisence plate on the Lincoln! Yay much better car! I just need the time, money, and inclination to put the radio I want in it, and it'll be ready to go. I also need to get the seat fixed. It's got a brand spanking new Die Hard battery. Batteries, by the by, are expensive. Just throwing that out there. I also just put in a wireless N desktop card and BOY is it nice. So fast! I had a wonderful weekend, full of lots of Hannah time. The last two nights of "Get Frisky!" went famously well. Despite the director's sincerest efforts to freak the hell out. I'm still amazed by all the people who came up to me and complimented me on my number. Boggles the mind a bit. The weekend was really good for the Sultan's Tent, too. The last two weekends we hadn't gotten all that great a reception, but this weekend was a lot better. The crowd was a lot better for the show, too. Saturday afternoon I slept in (Thank you, God!) a little bit. Not as late as I'd have liked, but Hannah wanted to go out into the gloriously beautiful day, so I can't complain too much. We tooled about the Four Seasons Mall for a couple of hours searching for the perfect flirty black skirt for her to wear to the show. And it took every damn store in the mall to find it, too! It was worth the effort, as she looked amazing. Not that she ever doesn't, but she cleans up well. Shorty skirt, black lacey top, strappy heels, wine red lips, a felt choker with a dark red and bone colored cameo, and my grey felt hat. I wish I'd have remembered my camera, but alas, the vision will have to live in my brain for now. Today at work isn't really worth mentioning other than it was a beautiful day and I was stuck inside. Boo.

I do love that girl so.

gimme the beat, boys

Monday, March 19, 2007

So...

Hannah says I should post something.

Here you are.

i've got a love-a-ly bunch of coconuts

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Just Checking In

I know it's been awhile. I'd probably feel remotely guilty, but Hannah's been here since last, what, Friday? She's been on Spring Break, so yay me. Everything here's going well enough, but a lot of things that would have pissed me the hell off are minor nuisances since I've had a very loving girlfriend to come home to the last week-ish. No matter how tired or sore or angry I've been when I've come home, the girlfriend factor has done a right good job of washing it all away. Oh how I've missed this feeling. I think the Retarded Let's Change the Schedule Three Times and Tell No One trend is finally going to stop at work. So yay that. Numbers have continued to be awesome, at least on the days I work, so yay me, there. I also might have found someone to buy the Monte Carlo off of me, and it's a "good cause" not just some guy what wants to pimp out a big car. We'll see how dat goes. I might have also found someone who might buy a laptop off of me, too. If that goes through, then I'll have a little extra cash on hand to maybe get ahead on a couple of things. So things are really good. I'll make a longer post maybe tomorrow. Hannah has to go back to Boone and get her stuff for drill this weekend (weep!) so I'll have the free time. I'm here, wish you were nice.

a peaceful, easy feelin'

Friday, March 09, 2007

Ten Things I Hate About Me. You. Something. Here's Ten Things.

So I got tagged by Lenore for this little meme. I write ten things, presumably, about me. One is false. You all get to try and figure out which one is false. Bwahaha.

1. I'm naturally left-handed, but saw all the other kids in my preschool class writing with their right hands and thought that must be how it's done, and so now I write right.

2. I slept through two years of French class in high school and still managed the second highest grade in the class for both years.

3. My natural body temperature is somewhere around 97.6.

4. I once stayed up for 48 hours straight because I was bored and wanted to see what happened.

5. I BS'ed my way through my 9th grade science project using completely fabricated data I made up the day before the project was due and made the highest grade in the class.

6. I was engaged at one point.

7. Despite all outward appearances, American Idol is one of my secret, guilty pleasures. Though, not the beginning because I have perfect pitch and it hurts my brain to hear people who can't sing try to.

8. I was once elected the president pro temp of the East Rowan FBLA because the current president was unable to make the conference.

9. I once owned an undead 1980 Ford Van that could not be killed so long as gas was in the gas tank.

10. I was once on the front page of the Salisbury Post for selling lemonade.

So now you get to pick the thing I'm lying about and should be punished for!

Oh, and I get to tag five people. Hmmm. Hannah, Jules, Jerod, CMS, and TWG.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

Nothing Better to Do, It Seems.

Anonymous has decided to continue trolling my blog. I'll let you guys all see what an intelligent and worthwhile human being he/she/it is.

Anonymous said...

wow, an americian that isnt stupid. random is the word. and I am not afraid of your friends, Nicholas English. tell them to let me know when thay wanna come by, Ill have coffee ready. I used "anonymous" for effect, and it worked. do not allow my boredom to itrerupt your new found bliss.

Anonymous said...

christian dog.

your kind will be cleansed from the earth, the purge is upon us.

repent. fucker.


Wow. So the first one is just stupid and the second one is asking for lightning to melt his face. Good job!

Despite the vomitorious comments on the blogspot, this weekend was good for two out of three days. Hannah came down Friday night and she brought some delicious lasagna, despite being made of turkey (she said something about healthy and easier to cook, whatever), so I was a full and happy boy. Saturday my dad and step-mom came in from Hickory on their way to Chapel Hill and grabbed up the two of us. We all went out to UNC to meet my sister and her new beau for lunch, where we were joined by my brother. All told it was a good time. I miss hanging out with all of us together. My dad even found a "smoking buddy" in Hannah. At least until I can get her to quit, anyway. Heh. Jenna's new boyfriend seems like a good enough kid, at least. Polite but relaxed around the dad and the two (much bigger than he is) older brothers. Hannah even seemed relaxed and she's terribly shy around new people. So yay that. I don't think I'll be dragging her to mom's any time soon, but meeting dad went pretty well. I hope I get to meet her 'rents soon, though she constantly warns of me of the dangers that is the Eckerd Parental Tribunal. Abandon all hope ye who enter here, and that sort of thing. But I've always done well with parents. Then we came back and had more of the lasagna and watched (some of) Interview with a Scientologist, I mean, Vampire and (all of) The Producers. I highly recommend The Producers to anyone who hasn't seen it. Brilliance. Hannah had to leave early in the morning (it is to weep!) and I had to open. And close. All by myself. (The job-loathing begins again) But despite that I ended up almost 200% to budget for the day. Which is only going to encourage the Best Buy powers to continue to treat me like this because I can perform. Damnit. Looks like it's time to start up the ol' job search again...

and if you ever get annoyed, look at me I'm self-employed

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

On Cowardice...

This isn't the first time someone has anonymously threatened me when I have found love, but this latest one is certainly the most direct. Last time it was more vague, all about being confronted with some past sin or another. This time...well, I'll let you see for yourselves.

"Anonymous said...

one in five americains die in a car accedent each year... I hope one of them is you."

This message was posted in the comments of my last entry. I can't abide cowardice. If you must hate me, hate me in the open. If you must curse me, be strong enough to put your name to it. I can't think of anyone, really, who would be upset that I'm actually happy, really happy for a chnge. And even those who might be inclined to think so are more articulate. So whoever you are, come out in the open with your grievances. I'm sure this is a misunderstanding we can work out. I am out to make no enemies, who has the time for trivialities. And even if you wish ti remain out of the public eye for fear of my friends retaliating for me, there are other avenues of communication. So this is what I challenge you with, anonymous. Comment here with a name, or write me at my email address. I'm pretty sure it can be found in my profile, but I'll put it out here, too. xxxx@xxxx.com. I'm not afraid of you. It'll take far more than your weak curse to harm me. And anyone who really knows me knows why.

I must not fear...

Monday, February 26, 2007

Glee!

This weekend was easily the best weekend I have had, all told, in over a year. I have found someone who will not only put up with me, but actually enjoy me for me, lumps and oddness and all. And I like her in all her her-ness. Cause that makes sense. Her name is Hannah. I actually met her at Chris' wedding, but in a more off-hand kinda way. I remembered liking her face. And her dress blues. Yes, she's in the army. The band, though. She was one of the three people from Chris' current unit at the wedding. She's a little younger than I would otherwise maybe go for. 20, still in school. But we click so well, it's easy to forget such things. Of course the fact that she's gorgeous in a very classical way doesn't hurt.

Getting back to this weekend. She came down my way from App to finally "meet" after many long nights spent talking for hours and hours. And it felt like the most natural thing I've been a part of in the longest time. It felt like she was always supposed to be there right beside me. Familiar and still new. Comfortable, but oh so very exciting. And she smells great, too. It's an interesting dynamic we have, but very rewarding. I can't describe how lucky I feel to have found an even better thing than the one I lost. It's as though every good quality that ever existed in any girl I've loved in the past has been brought together into one single person and the whole is greater than the sum of the parts. She's of French and Scot origin, and it shows. She's a music major and a musician. She can cook, and loves to do so! (she made this awesome cake thing and brought it down this weekend. Yum!) She says she can sew (but admits her sister is much better at it), her eyes are brown with tinges of hunter green growing in from the outside. She possess a very classic beauty; heavy eyelids, great hips and legs. She's into anime, science fiction, fantasy. She wants to do the renaissance festival. She's tough and toughly built. She's strong and tall. She's got soft, pale, very kissable skin. What's not to love?

And I'm not ashamed or embarassed or afraid to say that I am very much in love with Hannah Gabrielle Eckerd.

ego te amo, mea dea minima

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Huh.

It seems I've found someone to accompany me in my insomnia again. It's bittersweet. That is a wound I don't know will ever heal. Not completely. There's something new, though. Different. Won't be the same. But how could it be? One step at a time, I guess. If I can stick to that. It's been a while. I'm a little impatient. That and I've got a long stride with this legs of mine. I tend to skip steps. We'll see.

My boots continue to be awesome. I need to take some pictures of them. With me in them, maybe.

My new car radio finally arrived. I could bore with the details and reasons why this is the single most awesome car stereo I have ever seen and worked with, but suffice to say that it allows an insane amount of control over the music. It pleases my audiophility...ness...ary...whatever.

In work news, the job remains the same. Most days it's alright, but ultimately, it lacks real fulfillment. There's a whole lot of potential, though. Might be worth sticking around as part time, even if I get another job. We'll see. Speaking of other jobs! We'll have nearly a dozen hookahs with us at Carnivale. It's ridiculous. I hope we sell every damn bit of equipment we're bringing. And then some. Because that'd be super. And back to Best Buy. It seems that Scott, yes that Scott is insisting that Laquinta go to some meeting thing in Charlotte and happily suggested that I take her morning shift. If I didn't want the money I'd have laughed in her face as I told her no. But I also feel a bit of loyalty and responsibility to the department. You don't look good if you don't help out. Or some such. Bleh. Hate opening.

blue-eyed boy meets a brown-eyed girl

Saturday, February 17, 2007

New Boots FTW!

Man. It's been a loooong week. Long week.

I don't like funerals. They're uncomfortable. No, I'm not afraid of death. I'm not uncomfortable with the concept. It's the greiving that's uncomfortable. Everyone crying, the air is thick with the smell of grief. And, intellectually at least, I understand that. But I know my grandfather would have been trying to tell people to stop crying. Laugh, smile, it's a beautiful day outside. Go play a round of golf. I've always handled death and dying well. Maybe a little too well. It was a good service, don't get me wrong. It was a great service, really. The message and eulogy were powerful, fitting, moving. I just...don't like funerals. Too somber. People get mad if you laugh at something. Even if it's funny. Especially if it's funny. How dare you laugh! Someone is dead! Yes, and someone died just know while you told me that. Leaving this world is just another step in the grand scheme of things. There's an afterlife out there, people. And all those people there are supposed to be Christians. My Granddaddy Jim has his spot in heaven, so what is there to mourn? I will miss him. I'm not saying I won't. I'm just saying I don't mourn his passing into a better thing. Funerals. Feh. Uncomfortable

I'm also not a fan of ties. Which I wore to the funeral. Stupid tie.

Work's been nuts this week. It's been shockingly busy. Too many people. It's hard to do my job right when a customer has me trapped on the fringes, leaving a dozen or so people free to do whatever they want in the middle. On the upside, the numbers have been stupid awesome. La dee freakin' da. My boots came in yesterday, though. It took special ordering them, but I was finally able to find a pair of good tall boots. the heel on 'em gives me just the right amount of arch to actually put my weight down on more than just my heel and the ball of my foot. Wow! Pulled an eight hour day in them with little or no discomfort. If I had worn better socks, I'd be golden, but the pair I grabbed were a little more worn out than I thought they were. Garbaged!

Chris is back from his two weeks of training for his funeral honors team. He passed with almost flying colors, near perfection on all his scores. Which isn't enough for him, but was well enough for him to be qualified to train others in how to do his job. He can't train trainers, but he can train other people. And now begins the mad dash to get everything we NEED for next weekend. Carnivale! So very exciting!

And now I must go and fail to go to sleep for many hours so I can get up and open tomorrow. Ick. I'm needing a vacation.

and if the train's on time, you can get to work by nine

Monday, February 12, 2007

Unfun V-Day

So the funeral is Wednesday. Which means I get to spend Singles Awareness Day at a funeral. Fun times, fun times. At least now I don't have to worry about a date. >_>

bleh

Sunday, February 11, 2007

James Poole

My grandfather passed away today, sometime around 2PM. He had a heart attack a few years back and hasn't been the same since. This past year has seen him in the hospital frequently and the last three months he's been in as much as he's been out. In a way, it's a kind of relief, at least to me. He's not sick anymore. He's not slow or tired or weak. No more worrying and fretting, "will he make this time?" "is this it?" I know he's at peace. He led a good, Christian life. He'll get his eternal reward. I'm worried about my grandmother, though. Ever since all us grand-kids grew up and moved out of town, she's been slowly edging closer and closer to breakdown. She's always been just a liiiiitle tightly wound. So, if you're inclined, please pray/think about my grandmother, Jeanne.

A little bit about my granddaddy Jim. He's not my "real" grandfather. My biological grandfather and grandmother divorced many years ago. My dad was young then. So all my life, he's been my grandfather just as much as any other. He was a good man. He loved his step-kids as much as his own and loved his grandkids. He was always quick with a joke, usually bad. He lived to see three generations of children: his and Jeanne's kids, those kids' kids, and just a year ago, my cousin Audrey's little girl. He was an independent kinda guy, which I, in retrospect at least, have to admire. He owned a little insurance company in Rockwell, where I grew up. He was a firefighter into his 60's, if I recall correctly. He was active in his church and community. He had been and alderman on the Rockwell city council a few times. He loved good food. Especially barbecue, and even more especially Darrell's (being the best tiny BQQ joint ever) barbecue. While I was never especially close to him, I wasn't especially distant either. He's always been a postive influence in my life. And the last few years I've gotten to really know him better. As a kid, there's a world of interaction you just don't have with adults/parents/grandparents. Since my late teens and on, it was always fun to talk with Jim. He had a quick wit, very punny and sarcastic at times. In a lot of ways, he was the perfect foil to my grandmother. She's always been Model American Homemaker. The house is always spotless. Everything must be just so. But she doesn't always do well with disorder. Jim, on the other hand, was much more laid back. And he was never shy about letting my grandmother know when it was time to chill a bit before she got too wrapped up in the housewifery. At least he made through one more Thankgivichristmas. I'll miss him, but I don't know that I'll mourn him. He lived a full life; he didn't pass on prematurely. He didn't die "before his time." I'll carry the things I've learned from him on in my mind and heart, pass those lessons on to those who need them.

Just look in on us from time to time, old man. Y'know, between rounds of golf. I know you always loved us, no matter what. Just keep loving us rom up there. And we'll meet up again someday.

take it easy, jimbo

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Can I get a band-aid?

A lot has happened in a very short amount of time. Single's Awareness Day looms like a dark cloud, heavy with tempest and rain, on othe horizon. Oh joyous holiday. My grandfather, Jim is, again, in the hospital. This time it doesn't look like he's going to make it. A co-worker, Ken, had a heart attack earlier this week. Apparently he had a heart defect. Today, when I came to work, I was informed that he was declared brain-dead overnight and he was pulled off life support. He would have turned 21 yesterday. 21. Do you even realize howyoung that is? He was really looking forward to this weekend. Wanted to party like a fresh 21 year old should. He was really looking forward to actually being able to tend bar. He was a good kid. I'll miss having him in the department. There's a bit of a social vacuum in the house right now since Chris is gone for two weeks for training. I hate having such a small circle of friends. All it takes is three or four people otherwise engaged for an evening and my night is shot. Bleh. And to top it all off, this accursed Valentine's Day crap is stirring up old wounds. It's been 15 months since I've been with a woman I loved in any capacity. And every day I miss her presence. The late nights spent chatting online, night after night. Her sense of humor, her attitude, the way she loved me so utterly and completely. There are still moments when, in bittersweet rememberance, I am stunned into a moment of silence by the weight of just how deeply we loved each other. And like a phantom limb, there's that ache inside. Late at night, in that space between memory and dream where I can hear her voice, smell her hair, feel the weight of her pressed against me. Most days it's ok. Most days it doesn't hurt. But days like these past few, days where I would have turned to her and been comforted...

Days like these just hurt...

So maybe all I want is just a band-aid. A temporary reprieve, just something the dull the pain for a little while. I know that real treatment is what's needed, but I have no idea how long it's going to take for the real thing to come around again. My average is about three years. Right now I just wanna lose myself for a few minutes, find solice and comfort wrapped up in someone's arms for a bit. Part of me doesn't even really care who. Just someone, something warm, soft. I just need a band-aid. Maybe that band-aid turns out to be the treatment. Hell, that'd be great. But I've got realistic expectations here. I just...

need something during days like this...something simple...

just something to help me get by for a little while...

that's all...

[/end pathetic plea for attention]

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

There is a Name

There is a name that haunts me.
This name has found its way
into almost every girl
I've ever been seriously involved with
in one form or another.
It's the middle name.
So I don't always know it
when I'm getting into it.
But sooner or later,
I find out.
Ah,
she has that name.
That name that haunts me.
It's so bad,
I've found myself
asking girls
what their middle name is
if I find myself interested.
The name has not been present
for some time.
And...
oddly enough...
I've not been involved
with anyone
in almost a year.
Billie,
Anglee,
Jen,
Pheobe,
Kae.
All these names
stretching back
into my youth.
All these sharing a
common,
hidden
name.
Why do you follow me?
And now,
something blips on the radar.
A distant scent
that piques my interest.
I've met her once
or twice.
I know
a little
about her.
I find out
a little more.
Little things start
to sync,
fall in place.
And what,
praytell,
is her middle name?
Oh haunted name!

Marie.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

I Love to Work at Nothin' All Day

Sorry to be so detached from all you out in intarweebsland, but Burning Crusade came out, so I've been a bit glued to the tube. Not as bad as Jerod, but I've been "stuck" in WoW for most of my spare time. I lucked out, too. One of the perks of working at Best Buy is I was able to set aside a collector's edition of the game for myself. Which was lucky, seeing as how all the rest of the store's copies got gone in a matter of minutes after the store opened. And we ran out of regular copies before too long into the day. It was a little pricey, but it had some neat stuff in it. The art book is fabulous and the soundtrack is awesome.

In other news, work is still work. The diaphonous future looks better for me at Best Buy, but it's as ellusive as ever.

However, the Sultan's Tent stands to prosper very soon. We've put the deposit on the vendor spot at Castle Carnevale and they're excited to have us there. They're actually giving us a little bit more spot than we're paying for, which is doubly awesome. We've got our application for the vendor spot at CRF and Chris is going to turn that in on Monday.

Oh. And I found my phone. Under a pile of laundry. Which is where I thought it was. But I had lost it. And now it's not lost. Exciting.

Man, I don't wanna go in at 8AM tomorrow. Like a whole lot.

and if you ever get annoyed/look at me i'm self-employed

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Long Days of Nothing

It's been a while, longer than it should have been, so here I am to update you all on the fabulous comings and goings of the last week or so. I worked all of two days last week (fun time, fun times), but I did get a good amount of cleaning and such done around my room. Mostly laundry, but I gave the bathroom a much needed rub down. Sadly, very sadly, a lot of my time has been spent on World of Warcraft. Ultimately, it was free time anyway, but it was still a bit much. I didn't get near as much done as I should have, though, really, the main thing not done was attempting to move my bed. Other than that, Chris, Wes, and I have picked up our regular workouts again. Yay that, at least. I've been doing the best I can to eat healthy, but it wasn't easy not having too much money to through around. Things are looking better for work, though. I might just be able to convince my managers to create a full time spot for Car-Fi for me. And it's a warrented event, really. Jimmy would love to have me work full-time. The department, as good as it's been since I got back there again, would be even better. But, even on top of that, there might actually be a chance for upward movement in Car-Fi. I had a one-on-one sit down chat with Jimmy yesterday. And for once, it wasn't a bad one, oddly enough. Just going over the month's goals and plans, and general praise for my performance, sprinkled with a dash of information spreading, given that I had last worked Monday. But I mentioned that we could really use a Senior in the department, which Jimmy said he was trying to work on getting. If I can get the managers to create a full-time spot in Car-Fi and if Jimmy can make a Senior spot, I stand a good chance to get it. But that's a lot of ifs. We'll see. Having a full-time position again would go a loooong way to making me want to stay at Best Buy. As much as I can, and do, complain about working retail, and under a certain manager or two, it's not a bad job, day-to-day. I can think of things I'd rather be doing for money, sure, but all told, it's not the worst job I've had. I do get some recognition for the job I do, even if it's not as much as I'd like. At nearly $11/hr it's not bad pay. And if I were working full-time hours, it would be even better. Also, given the performance of the departments I've worked in for the last year, my next review at the end of February could mean a significant pay increase.

And speaking of better oportunities, the Sultan's Tent stands to do really well this year. We've got a nice vendor spot for the Castle Carnevale at Castle McCulloch, assuming Chris comes through with getting the deposit paid. And that will spell massive sales for us. We're scrambling to gather up an inventory for the show, but there's plenty of time. If our Velvet Glove nights are any indication, we could very well make up the deposit in sit down lounge smokers alone, not including people who buy hookahs from us. Our distributor should have an updated price list to us sometime next week, I hope, so I can finish up the website. It's not much of a site right now, and I don't plan to make it a whole lot. We're not looking for a whole lot more than an online ordering page. Simple paypal business shopping cart interface, all html. Very easy load time, at least.

Next to penultimately, I've quadruple checked my enrollment in online W2 delivery. Last year I got mine around the 23rd. I certainly wouldn't mind getting it a little earlier. This year's return should be both timely and significant. I also might have a buyer for the Monte Carlo, and someone I trust to do right by it. And Doug's started making payments on my old laptop. So, if only for the time being, things are looking up a little bit.

Speaking of Penultimates, Bryan, the man friend of Alene (ThatWeirdGirl) has been hoisted off to play in the sandbox for a few months, so keep him, and all of our boys, girls, men, women, and others over there in your thoughts and prayers. They're doing good stuff over there. Really. Wrong reasons or not, we needed to be there. It would have been nicer if it had be handled right, but regardless, there's democracy there. There's not dictatorship. And the removal of tyrants...that's Godly work.

Lastly, if you tell someone (me) that you'll be free on a certain night (Friday) so I can come out and do you (Anglee [save your hisses and your comments until I'm done]) a favor by selling you a sound card and installing it for you (see? business) do have the decency to keep your appointment. If you can't, then at least have the kindness to call or message in one of the myriad means of communication we have at our disposal. It makes for much better planning of weekend nights. It really does. Ultimately, though, I spent my time with much nicer, and prettier company, and comfortably cuddled on the loveseat to boot, than Anglee anyway, so I think it worked out in the end. But still. Call? Email? IM? MySpace Message?! SOMETHING?!?! I mean really.

Sooooooo...yeah.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

The New Year

So far: Same old stuff.

Ah, New Year's. A time of new beginnings. Or, y'know, a lot of the same old stuff. Although I had a pretty good weekend, all told, things are going back to their usual uncomfortable normal. Phil's party was good, though a little lower key than most "Phil" brand parties. I had a date, of sorts, but I'll get to that when I list some of my resolutions for the year. Low key as it was, I had a really good time. Some of our up and coming next generation rennies made an appearance and I have hope for next season. And nothing beats philosophical discussions until dawn. We all got up around 1 or 2 the next afternoon and cooked up a delightful breakfast, with more general hanging out until it was time for us to head north a bit for Hugh's eventual party. We ended up milling about (Ha!) Concord Mills for a few hours before making it to my mom's place for a little bit and eventually to the Fisher's. I got to (finally) meet Hugh's "girlfriend" (I kid.) and it was really great to see Mike and Beth. She's about 12 weeks along, and doing well. Mike is not nervous, yet, but predicts full on freak out in about 4-6 months. Food, fireworks, yay. But really? Just not all that moving. Probably just me.


Resolutions! Everyone's making them. And I'm breaking from tradition. I resolved around 6 years ago to stop making resolutions, but it was time to bring them back.

1. Get all my legal crap sorted out by my 25th birthday (May 15). You don't have to know what it is. I'm getting it fixed.

2. Lose two inches off my waist by my 25th birthday. Aim for a further two more by the end of the year. Ultimately, I'll be fine in a 34 inch waist as long as my middle is slimmed down, but if I can do a 32, I'll take it!

3. Never bring a date to New Year's at Phil's. I always get ignored by them. But at least this year my "date" wasn't making out with someone else. I know how to pick 'em, I tell ya.

4. Have the apartment ready my living by May. This is when Chris and Lani expect to move
out around April or May, and I'll need to get stuff to replace the stuff they'll be taking with them, etc. etc.

5. Get a good job. Not just a better job, a good one. One that has shift work. That way I can get in a routine again. And one that will pay enough so that maybe I won't need to find a third roommate come May.

6. Start going back to school. Though, ultimately, this is contingent on number 5. Without a better paying, better scheduled job, it'll be damn hard to go back for anything other than a class a semester, and I can and will do better than that. I don't know what in, mind you, but I do need to go back and finish what I started.

Runner-up: Find a girlfriend. I do not mention this as a full-on resolution, because to do so would appear desperate. Which I am not. Wouldn't mind not being single, but, really, I'll be much better boyfriend material if I can take care of some or all of those resolutions first. Granted, I won't say no if a girl wants to get in on the ground floor before all the awesome renovations and growth take place, but I know my...self. I've got a lot of potential, but I've got a lot I need to work on.

Other Runner-up: Post more again, for real, again. I signed up for this thing for a reason, right?


I hope everyone had a good weekend. I wish that everyone's 2007 shows improvement over 2006. If you did shitty, then this year is your year to do not quite so shitty. If you had a superfantabulously awesome year of multiple lotto winnings, then, by all means, I hope you top that this year! As for me? I'm going to plug myself into my new Bose (yes, that Bose) headphones and do some crossword puzzles until I fall asleep.

Mighty Lord, preserve us from jeopardy.
Take Thee now our faith and love, thine inheritance.
Grant thee victory o'er our treacherous and cruel enemies
And to our land bring peace.
O mighty Lord hear our lowly prayer,
And by Thy shining holy light.
Grant us, O Lord, peace again.
O mighty Lord hear our prayer
and save our people
Forever, forever!

Friday, December 29, 2006

Ha!

Harry Potter Meme of All Memes by Osaku
Name/Username
Age
Gender
HouseRavenclaw
WandPine, 9", Unicorn Hair
Best CourseDefense Against the Dark Arts
Worst CoursePotions
PetEastern Screech-Owl
PatronusBobcat
Quidditch JobMediwizard
Wizard CandyChocolate Frogs
Profession After SchoolCursebreaker

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Christmas Report!

So Christmas has come and gone again. And this one passed quietly, with little noise, but lots of warmth and love. I like incident free holidays. Today was the antithesis of this past Thanksgiving. I just hate I won't be able to make to Bristol. And the only thing that would have made today even better was having someone to share it with, but...nothing for that right now. Next year? Like a bandit, I came out. I got a whole lot more than I thought I would. Which I don't necessarily have a problem with. But that's not the point. I would have been perfectly happy with less than I got, but I got what I got, and that's a lot. Rhyme, done. I got the Viking Lego Fortress. Holy crap! Primus, a bundle of very nice clothes, dark chocolate by the truckload, and the chocolate covered coffee beans. And other cash and prizes! But the best thing of the whole day was the ENTIRELY drama free family gatherings. And that means the family time was fantastic, and that's always good.

right. so. some song lyrics here.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas

Well, it's officially Christmas. And there's a lot I could say, but I'm at my mom's. So I'll probably post something later. For now? I just wanna say Merry Christmas to each and every one of you out there. I miss some of you very much, and I just want you to know that I'm thinking about you.
But Christmas is supposed to be a happy time, and I don't doubt it will be. So I'm off to bed.

and God bless us, everyone

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Ugh. Tired.

Behold, my undying hatred of working retail during the holiday season. Behold! My unquenchable loathing of "Holiday Hours." I've been having to get up really damn early all week this week and it's wearing me the heck out. And holidays are supposed to be days of rest and feast and prayer! And I've been doing only one of those lately. And I can tell you now I've been eating light (of neccessity) and sleep is a joke. But I haven't killed anyone yet, so the prayers, at least, are working. Holiday hours. Pah! Our store doesn't even need to be open late. It's dead in there after 9PM, even on the weekends. Let me sleep! Stop making me come in at 7:15! Hate!

never gonna get it

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Saturday Lunch, Revisited

Not in a gross "I just saw what I ate for lunch in the toilet" scenario, though. Yesterday, Chris, Doug, and I went out to Olive Garden for lunch; the unlimited Soup, Salad, Breadsticks thing they do. It was fabulous as always (and healthy). I mention it in specific because we had an interesting waitress. There had been at least tow, probably three, large groups of families celebrating A&T's December graduation and as a result our waitress seemed a bit tired when she first came out, but she was attentive, and all three of us sympathize with people who have to wait tables for a living. It didn't hurt that she was cute. As lunch went on, we discovered that she had a rather witty and dry sense of humor that was readily appreciated by the whole lot of us, especially me. Y'know, since I tend to be a dry-as-toast sarcastic ass. A lot. But I really do think we made her day a little better. Because we shared in the sense of humor the whole time we were there. As we were getting up to go, she almost said Merry Christmas, but stopped short because she was not allowed to say it. So the three of us immediately and loudly wished her the merriest Christmas possible. Several times. And we stepped out to get my hairs cut, then had to turn around because I forgot my hat. This is where it gets most notable. I pop in, and the table we were at was already seated and my hat was nowhere to be found. Luckily, I spotted Hilary (our waitress. Observational awareness; I spotted her name tag and remembered her name from the beginning.) and asked if she'd seen the hat. She ran off to ask her busser, and she came back looking somewhat forlorn, her eyes cast down. Ah, I thought, she found the hat and is pretending something bad happened to it. Is she flirting with me? She said, "Unfortunately there's been a terrible accident...here's your hat." Which was just fine. And I was right about the pretending. Ah, people. "Transformers, right? Excited about the movie?" Gaspa! And we had a brief discussion about the awesomeness of a Transformers live-action movie and the probable problems of Michael Bay directing it. I was taken aback that she would know anything about Transformers. There are a few possibilities. She has brothers/guy friends who are geeks. She has a boyfriend that is a geek. She, herself, is a geek. I have no problem with the first, and the third would be awesome, expecially if there was no boyfriend. Because geek girls are hard to find sometimes, and cute ones even harder.

Maybe I should go back to Olive Garden sometime soon. Hmmm.

Also? I got a haircut. Yay.

when I saw her standin' there

Saturday, December 16, 2006

God, what a WEIRD night.

Right. So today was a bit of an odd duck. I had to go in at 10 this morning for work. But despite the ungodly hour at which I had to get up (shut up, I don't do mornings) it was a good day at work. The XM rep came in and, for no real reason that I could determine, handed me a Starbucks gift card of undetermined (I'm guessing like $5, but still) amount. Whaaaaaa? I was able to get away with wearing my comfortable (read: not black or brown) running shoes today, so my right leg was much better off. And it only took me five minutes to get home. During rush hour traffic. On a Friday. On the weekend before Christmas. How'd that happen? So I get home, I chill for a few minutes, then hop in the shower to get ready for Chris' gig at Plum Krazy's. Once again, I got to pretend like I knew what I was doing and play Sound Guy for the night. It's fun, and I'm going to be there anyway. It's cool how I've been kinda adopted into a "Guest Star" role in the band. Kinda neat, really. But right before they start for the night, Lenny, the kinda head of the band, drops a Jack and coke down in front of me. Free booze! This was most unexpected. I guess I must be doing a pretty good job. At the end of the gigs I've helped with, the band has tossed a little stipend my way. Not a whole lot, but it's always enough to cover my bartab, so it's cool, but never the buying of drinks! Susie, Heather, and Wes all show up. And normally that's a good time for everyone. But that's when it got weird. Wes, being Wes, was Wes all over Heather and Susie. Which, personally, is a little irritating. It's usually tolerable, but tonight the necking was being done nigh on top of me. Which makes for the slightly awkward. And by slightly I mean the opposite. Sarcasm and all. And this started at the BEGINNING of the night. And went on until AFTER the band had stopped. Of course, I had thought Susie was still seeing what's-his-face. Maybe not? Hard to keep up. (Why Justin, is that jealousy I hear? Yeah, maybe, what of it? I'm right fond of Susie, but last I heard she was with someone. Some mistakes do not bear repeating. Already struck out there once. ANd now we're moving on.) Eventually, I was able to be distracted from the...whatever...that was going on beside me when one of the Pixie Twins (these absolutely adorable little blond girls that work at PK's) showed up wearing knee high furry boots, a black sweatshirt, a pink santa hat, and a pair of pink boy-shorts shilling jello shooters. You will not I did not mention what kind of pants she was wearing. Which would be because she wasn't. She had some very nice legs. But even that was trumped a little later, though still eye catching. One of Susie and Heather's friends, Caitie(I think? I recognized her, but had only met her once) showed up. And I have to say, again, that I'm attracted to this one. Where the other two were displaying much flesh, she was a little more covered. Even if the jeans were painted on, with her knee high black boots also painted on. She had a much more reserved air about her that I like. It definitely didn't hurt that she's got an amazing smile and gorgeous eyes. But, alas, I was at the sound board and unable to engage her in any conversation or dance. Ah, well. But anyway, Friday nights are weird nights for gigs as it is. People (and the band) are tired from a day's work already. There is a higher concentration of drunk assholes and retards (had to save Susie at least once) and people tend to leave early. So the last set saw the place almost empty, save the Hardcore AKA Fans. But it ends well, and they guys sounded great (thank you, thank you). And as I'm waiting to pay off my tab, Lenny hands me another Jack and coke. Whaaaa? Oh well, cheers, mate! And to top it all off, the guys tossed in a little more my way than usual. I must be doing something right. Soooooooooo...yeah. Weird night. Weird night.

Tomorrow, laundry and a haircut. I've gone six months growing my hair out. It looks good. I do actually like the look I have, with the pseudo-jawline-beardlet and the longer curly-shag but clean and groomed hair. But as much as I like it, I think I'm done with it. While I don't look bad with it long, like with bright colors, I just don't think it fits how I see myself. This time I think I'll stick with the short hair. It's more me.

slainte!

Friday, December 08, 2006

Doing Fine, Really

I appreciate everyone's kind words in response to my last blog. Really, I wasn't nearly as whiny blue as my post sounded. But it was stuck in my head, it was 3 in the morning and I just needed to get it out. That's what this space is for, really. Well, at least partially, anyway. Sometimes I get to feelin' like the crap and I write it out. In truth, I felt almost immediately better just getting out of my head and "on paper" so to speak. Things have returned to a more or less modicum of not too bad. I still dread going in to work everyday, and I think I've figured out the main reason. Sure, I can complain about the management, but that'll be found everywhere I work. And, admittedly, I don't have the ideal, ah, personality for retail. I'm a malcontent. It happens. But the main thing, I think, is that I'm not growing. I'm not learning. I realized this when I was explaining to one of the new guys why I left Geek Squad. I left because I wasn't learning anything. I wasn't gaining any new skill, I wasn't growing. Stagnation is bad. And that's what I'm dealing with. I'm not being challenged in any way, so it's hard to pay attention, focus on the job. It's hard to find anything to enjoy. Today wasn't as bad as some other days, though. I was able to teach some people some of the basics of some of the stuff. And it was nice to actually see the people get what I was telling them. (Maybe I should be a teacher.) I've also been pondering the idea of going back to school. Even if it was just a class or two a semester at first. The only thing is, I don't know what I want to study! I webcomic (of all things!) has stirred up the old physics bug in me. But I also want to study history, specifically European history from the Roman Empire to the 17th Century. But I'm also interested in math theory and calculus. Or maybe linguistics. Literature? Information technology, computer science, engineering. This is part of the problem of me. I learn really fast. I love learning in general. And I'm good at jsut about all things equally. Be it mathematical/logical, or verbal or artisitic. I take to languages very easily (I slept through two years of French and pulled an A 7 out of 8 quarters), I grasp complex scientific and mathematic theories and concepts with very little study, I have a knack for grammar and spelling and I've got a very strong foundation in writing prose, verse, and essay. What do I study? How can I bring any of that in to focus on anything? Is there an Everything Ever major? Do I take a physics class or two one semester, then some history and so forth, just doing "themed" semesters until the end of my days? Ack!I just don't know! Of course, it's all kinda moot until I can find something that pays a little better so I can afford to actually take the classes. And after the holidays I plan to do some serious searching. I like Best Buy. I used to like working there. Maybe I can connect with one of my superiors and see what my options are, see if I can't force something that will allow me to grow and be challenged, that will allow me to learn. We'll see. But I'm hopeful. Eeeeeever hopeful.

For now? I'm going to read Eragon and The Eldest all in a bundle. Most likely in only about 3 or 4 sittings. Being a voracious reader and all.

I command your very souls you unbelievers

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Not so much.

Well. 3AM and insomnia strikes again. And what keeps me awake tonight, Pinky? The same thing that keeps me up any night, really: a general dissatisfaction with my life. Which is as simple and complicated as it sounds. I'm not happy, so I don't sleep well. Which means I sleep later when I finally do get to sleep. Which means I'm more awake when I should be asleep, then stay up later because of the...you get the idea. I miss having someone to talk to this late at night. I had that. For a while. It made it easier. I was still an insomniac, and things weren't as good as they could have been, but there was someone there. Someone who loved me, and I loved them. And miss her. Loneliness is part of the problem. I don't get over love very easily. It's been, what, six, seven months now? Longer, if you look at the signs. But if felt so good to be with someone who wanted me, loved me. Didn't want me to try and be something else. Someone who actually desired me, lumps and all. And it was the same for me with her. We fit. We didn't need to mold ourselves into anything just sit there and click. That's the big problem, I guess. There are other more material things, and those will take time and money to fix. And since I have less money, it'll take more time. I want to have that stuff all squared away by my 25th birthday, which I think is a very attainable goal. And while having the material things squared away will make the immaterial (and more important) things a little easier to fit, they, ultimately, mean only so much. Friday was a really good day. Friends and family having a freat time. But with Chris and Lani being off in honeymoonland, I've noticed how depressingly much I've come to rely on Chris for the socializing. It's been just Doug and me around here and, well, nothing's been going on. I've seen Doug, the pets, the TV and my computer. Excitement. It would fantastic to have Something Else to do. Someone I could call over to hang out (if the apartment didn't look like crap. I need to be less lazy), or to go out and visit or something. But of course, my case is not helped by the fact that I seem to have, just like high school, found myself surrounded by many amazing and beautiful women who have little interest in me other than friendship and/or are very happy in their current relationship. Go me. I realize I have some somewhat strict criteria. But I have a reason for that. I'm not looking for just a good time. I don't have interest in flings or one night stands. It's not about sex, it's about everything. Which isn't to say I've become some asexual being (God, no) but it's not about just getting some. If that's all I wanted, I wouldn't be writing this pile of emo. They have to at least "get" the ren-faire, if not love it. Participant is nice, since that's something we can do together, but playtron will work, too, since that means they have a love of it. An appreciation of sci-fi, fantasy, and anime would be nice. It'd be awesome if she could get into Warhammer or RPG's of some kind, but it's not a requirement. I prefer more modest attire most of the time, but I like a girl who knows how to dress enticing when the occasion arises. I like spontaneity, but not for its own sake. I like traditional gender roles. So sue me. I like it if a girl can cook and clean. No, I'm not asking you to do it for me. I prefer to do my own laundry and I like to cook. But sometimes domestic habits are good. An artistic talent would be nice; dancing, drawing, singing, painting, playing an instrument. Being around creativity inspires it from me. And I don't exercise that part of my brain enough. She should love trees and flowers and animals and mountains and beaches. I'm an earthy kinda guy. I live in a city, yes, but a very green one. I grew up around trees and yards and such. You'll note I haven't listed much, if anything, about physical appearance. I won't try to lie and say looks don't matter. Because that's bullshit. But what I find attractive, not everyone else will. I also don't have a "type" I like more than any other. I've been attracted to (and, lo, even dated some of these) tall girls, short girls, slender and curvy, short hair, long hair, blonde, redhead, brunette, (even one noted case where she was starting to grey), younger girls, older girls, blue and green and brown and grey eyes, and any of the races of man. That said, I don't find unhealthy to be attractive. Both the thin and the fat. Does that make me shallow? Maybe. But it's not sexist either. I'm not asking a girl to conform to any kind of sterotypical model. But then, a lot of women might call me a chauvinist for my views on gender roles, too. Whatever. I'm not looking to be with a woman like that anyway, so it's a rather moot point to this diatribe.

Where was I?

Oh right. My life sucking and how I was going to listen to Hawthorne Heights and cut myself.

Also: I'm too damn moody. What, am I fourteen again? What the hell? I was doing just dandy Friday and riding the buzz from that all day Saturday. Then on Sunday I felt not so awesome. And I worked Sunday. Coincidence? Maybe. But can you take that chance? Bleh. Just bleh. I wrote, so I feel better. But I really wish I could have whined all this out to someone instead of just vomiting it out here for everyone to see. And I shall promptly copy this pathetic cry for attention on my other blog type spaces. Because I'm a jackass.

And so I think I'll close with an open letter prayer and let you guys get back to not listening to a grown man whimper about.


God,

For Christmas I would like Something Great back in my life. I'd ask for it from Santa, but that seems an unlikely thing to get from him. I've not been all that great this year, but I'm trying. I'm doing my best to repent for the things I've done, but I'm having a hard time. I want to be happier than I am. Being happier would make being better easier. And other modified comparative words. I've never been good at this asking for help thing. But I think I've gone as far as I can with this. I've had different Great Somethings in my life before, at various stages, but I always seem to screw it up somehow. I can't promise I won't screw it up again, but I'd like the chance to try. I'm a practical guy. I know I need to straighten some things out about me down here. But it would be nice to have that Something Great there to encourage and help me. I know You're always there. But sometimes it's nice for us mortals to have that warmth of a physical human there beside us. You understand, I know. You made us that way. Even if that Something Great isn't a Someone Great (though, really, that's what I'm asking), I need that Something that's missing. I don't know what it is. I have ideas, of course, but You know me better than I do. What with all that omnipotence and everything.

All I can do is ask.

Your will, not mine.

Amen.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

It was a Good Day.

So Chris' wedding was yesterday. And it was a whole truck load of a wide variety of awesomes. We'll start with Thursday night. Thursday was the rehearsal day. There was a whole lot of rushing and freaking by the groom, but he was getting married the next day. It's ok. But we had to pack everything up because we were going to stay over in Durham for the night. Which meant even more packing for Chris since he was going to be off to the honeymoon after the wedding. There was a minor issue with my tux, but we were able to get it resolved, no muss, no fuss. We then proceeded to check in at the Embassy Suites on Harrison Ave in Cary (OMFG!) and chill for a bit before heading off to the rehearsal. Of course, in one of several flights of intelligence by the Wagner House, the rehearsal was scheduled for 6PM. Which meant we had to fight rush hour traffic all the way to the rehearsal. So arriving a full 45 minutes late (but only minutes behind the bridal party) we start the rehearsal and we're all done in a matter of, roughly, 20 minutes. Then we all convoy out to Chris' dad's church where we have the rehearsal dinner, which was a lovely all-you-can-eat Italian affair. Chicken marsala, spaghetti, lasagna, and baked ziti chicken alfredo with breadsticks and salad with eclairs and cheesecake for desert. I ate myself stupid since all I had to eat the whole day was lunch at Red Robin around noon. And we had done a whole lot of running around all day to be eating at 8PM. There were a lot of silly and meaningful toasts made, a bonding of the two families, and an all-around good time. We go back to the hotel and chill for a few minutes then hit the 24 hour pool area. I should mention a few of the things that made me love the Embassy Suites real quick. First off, Chris' rate, thanks to the military discount was only $85 for a suite with a fold-out and two queen size beds. And the room was bloody huge. Before heading to the rehearsal we chilled out in the atrium at the entrance and heart of the hotel. The place itself is 9 stories tall. And the atrium was just awesome. Gorgeous with plush chairs and all that. But from 5:30-7:30 they had a complimentary snack bar with the option of a single complimentary drink. Awesome. I had a vodka and sprite, a nice little treat after a day of rushing like maniacs all day. Not top-shelf vodka by any means, but it was nice drink. But back to the pool. Now, for the Ren-Faire season, we stay at a place called the Country Suites. Why? Because Chris refuses to camp, I'm a creature of comforts, and the idea of trying to keep control of 9 teenagers on a campsite is just lame. This place has been very good to us over the years. Its rooms aren't quite as nice. And their pool is always too warm, the hot tob way too hot (even for me) and far too heavily chlorinated, and the whole room poorly ventilated. The Embassy, however, had a hot tub that was perfect in temperature and chlorine levels. The room was well ventilated, keeping ambient chlorine to a minimum and the pool was actually cool, as opposed to the temperature of tepid bath water. Needless to say, we were there for a while before heading to bed.

The next day we got up early and dropped down to the atrium again for the complimentary breakfast. Omelettes to order, with scrambled eggs, bacon and sausage, grits, cheese and pancakes all hot and fresh, with the usual array of oatmeal and cold cereals, milk and juices. I loves me a hot breakfast, and free is even better. After that, we go back upstairs to chill for a few more hours until Wes arrived to escort us to Crabtree mall (to pick up my tuxedo jacket) and then off to the venue. We arrived on time, much to the shock of ourselves and everyone us and proceeded to change into the monkey suits, which were very nice. Crevat and full vest, no cheesy half vests and dinky bow ties, and all in black with the white shirt and silver cufflinks. Very smashing. And then we wait. And then we came to find out that our venue had planned a wedding for the next day, and a rehearsal for the SAME TIME as the wedding. Wow. Brilliance. I'm none too impressed with the Wagner House. Goes back to the planning stages were they made us use their caterer, informed us that there would be no bringing of the alcohol, so we had to pay even more for them to get mead for us. Most of the wedding guests were rennies which meant that there were a lot of mead lovers in the crowd and we wanted it there for them. Most of the non-rennies also grew to love the fermented honey drink as well! But the rehearsal was a minor inconvenience and outside, while we were all inside. The wedding itself was actually a little delayed, but this is Lani we're talking about. It always takes her forever to get ready for anything. But I say that in the kindest way I can. She's family now and all. In a way, it was kinda comforting that she was delayed. A sense of normalcy being lent to the whole affair. And then the wedding. Lani was, of course, gorgeous. Chris got choked up during his vows. Lani got choked up during her vows. All the bride's maids were choked up the whole time. Y'know, normal wedding stuff. Lani had picked out nice black dresses for the girls to wear that they would be able to wear out somewhere else, if the evening called for a semi-formal dress. Lani can be practical sometimes. And the pastor kept the sermon fairly short, amazing for a Southern Baptist if you ask me, which was a true blessing since the shoes that came with the tux were horrrrrrrrible affronts to the very nature of foot wear. The ceremony was short and very sweet, with the both of them reciting their own vows, tears all the way. And that was the awesome part. See, we had booked the place from 4PM until 11PM. The wedding? Took maybe 20 minutes. Even given the late start that left us with over 6 hours to par-tay! The rest of the wedding photos were shot, we sat down, we ate (fabulous!), then off to the cake cutting. In the end I got promoted to Best Man pro temp, as Chris' dad wanted to sit with his wife instead of at the wedding party table. And he had also, it seemed, abdicated the Best Man's toast as well. Yay? But it was alright. I didn't have anything planned, really, but I had some heartfelt things I had to say, and I kept it short and to the point, but that's just me. The Maid(s) of Honor had wrtten things to say (more tears!) and then the cake cutting. No smashing, but there was a Lilliana moment of drawing on each other's faces with icing, which was adorable. And then! Then the dancing! Oh my, the dancing. At that point I had changed into my kilt and the short jacket. Let me sidetrack again for a moment. Originally, Chris had asked me to wear the kilt to his wedding. I was, of course, thrilled to do so, because I love breaking out the kilt. But then Lani didn't like the idea. Then she did, then she didn't again. Which, ultimately, was no big deal. So we called and had my tuxedo order changed. Only when we went to the mall on Thursday (Greensboro) to pick up the tuxes, they had left the waist-length jacket, but had given me pants. Huh. So they called and had the Crabtree store reserve a long coat like the others had to be picked up on the way to the wedding. But what that did mean is that as soon as the rest of the wedding pictures were taken, I changed out of the pants and into the kilt and kilt hose and tossed on the short jacket and looked fabulous again. So I spent the next many hours making an absolute fool of myself on the dance floor in my kilt. There was a Lady's Choice dance which I got "dragged" out for by Rayne. I danced with Chrissy during the first dance, being the lovely lady I was paired with in the wedding party. I danced a bit with Lolly, our queen from CRF and Heather, of course. Then came the tossing of the bouquet. Which was, of course, a full contact event with a tumble on the floor and a chase scene. Ashley, a long time mutual friend of everyone, caught the bouquet. And then the garter. It amazes me how many weddings I go to where the groom overestimates the elasticity of the garter. It fell short. Which I then (I'd consumed at least a full bottle's worth of mead by then) threw myself on to save the rest of the groomsmen from a fate worse then death. Did I mention the making a fool of myself all night long part? The surprise for me, though, was the rarely seen tradition of the man who catches the garter sliding it onto the leg of the lady that caught the garter. It was a very nice surprise for me, since Ashley has very nice legs. And it was very nice to be able to slide it up dangerously high on her thigh. Very nice. But then the more dancing. Ashley dragged me out on the floor a couple of times, as did Rayne and others a couple of more times during the night. That was all interspersed with general hanging out with a bunch of really awesome people I don't get to see as much as I'd like, including my brother. Pictures were taken, but not by me. I'll post the ones I can as soon as I get them. All in all, it was just a really awesome time. I haven't had that much fun in what seems like ages. And this year's renaissance festival was awesome, so that's saying a lot. I hate that some people didn't make it, but in the end, it kinda worked out.

you are so beautiful, to me

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Better. Really.

I'm doing much better. At the expense of some hours at work, though. Which sucks. But there's not much I can do about it. I was sick! I needed bed rest! So I took it over the weekend. And I feel much better for it. Still have a bit of a barky cough, but plenty of expectorant around here so at least it's "productive" coughing. Ick. Chris' wedding is Friday! Excitement! I plan on doing a whole lot of not much this week and enjoying the fun there. Laundry and WoW are the orders of the day for me. As for the rest of you? Well, that's entirely up to you.

it's a nice day for a...white weddiii-iinnnnnnnngg

Friday, November 24, 2006

The Darkest Day

Today = Suck.

Let's start from the beginning. Wednesday, I got a nice case of the Sudden Onset Cruds. I was kinds stuffy in the morning and then, right during dinner, BLAM! A tsunami of ache and ick rides up my spine and over my head. And then the condition continued into Thursday. And then came Thursday night. I was scheduled to come in at 3:30AM Friday for the Black Friday Bullshit Marathon. My schedule was 3:30AM to 2:00PM. Ten. Freaking. Hours. What the hell? And there was no way for me to call out. Nada. Even if I knew Wednesday I was going to feel like death lightly sauted in a creme sauce on Friday, calling in sick would have only gotten me fired. Which is a battle I don't care to fight, really. Yes, I'm sick. Yes, I'm contagious. But certain managers would have found a way to fire me for it. Which would have led to me filing a harassment suit. Just a mess. And I need a job more than a lawyer right now. So. I go in at three freaking thirty. Having slept maybe an hour. Not having eaten anything. BUt I wasn't hungry. Too busy being over-medicated. That's one of the nice things about my family. Can't throw a stick without hitting some kind of medical professional. So anyway. I'm propped up by at least four drugs at any given moment. But these drugs have a very drying affect, so I'm constantly having to leave to get water and relieve water. Fun times. Break time finally roles around at 9AM. Only the last guy to show up this morning went on lunch first. Thanks a bundle, jackhole. But I finally go on my lunch. And what a lunch it is. A single whole Chick-fil-A chicken biscuit. Not two like I really needed. Never mind that there was enough food for EVERYONE WORKING THE WHOLE DAY to grab two bisuits. Only one. So I eat it. Luckily, or so I thought, there were a handful of Krispy Kreme doughnuts that the XM rep has provided. So I had a kruller along with a monster drink and a bottle of water. But, it seems that the mix of my meds and those foods wasn't too wise. Because right around 11AM or so, on a routine trip to the bathroom for the water cycling, my internal organs decided to return to the outside that which I had consumed for my break two hours earlier. Did I mention that I was running a fever the whole time I was at work? So finally I am cleared to go home. There are a couple of managers who actually give a shit. Just not the top managers. Only, I've left me cell phone at home. Which is problematic because I haven't memorized anyone else's phone number, since I saved them into the cell. And I can't reach Chris on his cell phone. So what does my happy ass get to do? Walk home! Yay! Which sucked. And then I get home to find that I do not have my keys and the door is, of course, locked. So I get to break into my apartment. Fun! Then I grabbed a hot hot hot shower and passed out for a few hours.

So this poor dejected soul could do with some pampering. Preferably by a female type with a good immune system and great hands. Any takers?

cough hack splort uuuuuggghhhhhhh

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

The Blog That Followed!

Hear the words long prophesied. Well, not that long. And really more suggested. Not even promised, really. Anyway.

The 13th season of the Carolina Renaissance Festival came to a close this weekend. And I've got mixed feelings about it. On the one hand, I'll miss being able to be more "me" than I get to in the "real world". I've always felt more comfortable in garb with a sword on my hip than I ever have in any modern clothing. And Captain Julien Grey is a sort of idealized version of who I wish I was at times. He was born of noble blood, though he was not nobility himself. He started in the militias early on and distinguished himself. Eventually, he got picked to be in the Royal Guard, defending the royal family. And there, he continued to distinguish himself. He became Captain of the Royal Guard at 21, very young by anyone's standards, was knighted and took back his ancestral estates. In the following years, he was granted lands, respect and eventually a barony and lorship all his own. A self-made man. The American dream in Renaissance England, if you will. Now, I'm working on the self-made bit, but as a merchant, not a soldier. But on the other hand, Chris, Doug, Lani, and I nearly broke ourselves financing the festival this year. Which was a result of several things, some our fault, some not. And it didn't help that we were transporting 9 teenagers to and from the festival each weekend, on top of the four of us. And now we have our weekends back. Which is nice. But I'll still miss it.

A lot of greatness went down this weekend.

The Royal Guard finally got the recognition it deserves. Lolly, who played our amazing Queen Eleanor, is the Queen in Minnesota as well. Up there, she has her Royal Guard. And they're an amazing bunch. The dress in the Beefeater uniforms as designed by Henry VIII. They're all very sharp. And for them, Lolly created an order called the Order of the Queen's Heart. And for that Order, she commissioned pewter badges, a great honor, to be sure. This year, she gave our Royal Guard, my Royal Guard this great distinction that had until now only belonged to the Minnesota Guard. Words cannot express how much that means to me. For my entire run as Julien Grey, I have strived for such a worthy Guard as this. And it took what I thought it would take: breaking the Royal Guard off into its own troupe again. That meant I could have the creative control, the casting control. No longer would the Royal Guard be the dumping ground for men who got onto the cast, but didn't fit in anywhere else. No longer the rag-tag Keystone Comedy Cops routine. Yes, we played. We were goofy at times, but also, we were sharp when we needed to be. I am damn proud of those kids.

Also: Justin might be the prince next year. Or a prince anyway. He's going to audition, at least. He even got a sort of endorsement for the effort by Rob, the Entertainment Director and Fearless Leader. Which is why he is practicing speaking in the third person, you see. It seems there's been a lot of pretty princes, some down right girlish. But he plans to play a big manly prince. Soldier and scholar and ready for the throne, etc. He thinks it would be a great learning experience for him, and an opportunity to expand and stretch himself as an actor. It's also more inspiration for him to get into shape.

The cast party slash talent show was awesome. Our "dirty" version of "Seven Drunken Nights" went over fabulously. Mmm, free Guiness. It was nice to stick out a little more. The red shirt really helped out there, I guess, though I don't really know why. But it's best not to question, merely accept the results. If only it had resulting in something more than just a bunch of (mostly female, even!) people telling me how great it looked. And it doesn't help that Holly showed up Saturday, told me she missed me, hugged me and smelled good. I hate it when they do that. All smelling good and crap. Anger! And, predictably, it lead me to think of this time last year. And just how much I miss her. So very much.

This could be a weird holiday season. My grandfather, Jim, is in the hospital right now. He may be well enough to come home by Thanksgiving, which I hope for. My grandmother has been getting a little more and more emotional in the past few years. Granted her mother died a couple of years back, but for Pete's sake, the woman was in her 90's. It hasn't helped that almost all of her grandkids have moved off and out and away to college and/or lives elsewhere. So I'm really hoping things don't get bad anytime soon. Because mental breakdowns by the grandparents aren't pretty. But there are some silver linings. Jim is doing better. I don't have to fight about Thanksgiving dinners for once, since Randy's side of the family isn't doing a get together. Which is a terrible thing to say, but, hey, you don't get to be the black sheep by not stepping on toes. We'll see. Maybe I should be a teacher so I can get the summer off and get a Christmas Break. Hmm. Naaaaaahhh. I hate kids too much.

Well, that's most of what's on my mind right now. You crazy kids keep it down. And get off my lawn!

ever and ever and on and on. my sweet, dear kae, i love and miss you

Photoblog. Words to follow. Maybe.










Sunday, November 12, 2006

I Have Alene to Thank for This

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In May I helped battledream see the light (8 points). Last month I ruled Canada as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points). In April jadedjules and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points). In November I helped skzbrust hide a body (-173 points). In February I pushed beelee in the mud (-17 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-871 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!

Sincerely,
thelastpaladin

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Bwahahahahahahahahahahaaa!!!1 Any ladies seeking to give me what I deserve, please for a line to the left. In fact I shall give you all spankings.

and then the oral sex

Monday, October 30, 2006

Pictures! Glee!





These were snapped during the Court Dancing in the mornings; these in particular are from Saturday. I'd have more, but I was too busy actually dancing Sunday to get any then.

Overall, this weekend was a fairly interesting one. A pretty good one, actually. I got free italian food Friday night. And free food is always awesome. Especially if it's offered to you by someone who keeps reminding you (during the meal even) how much they hate you. Bwa-ha-HA! The Faire weekend was really nice, if bright. Cool enough to keep me from sweating too much, but warm enough to keep everyone else from complaining. Weak bastards, all! There was a very nice (to me, anyway) breeze blowing all weekend, too. I got many compliments on my new red shirt, nearly all from the female types, and several from female types not normally in my social circles at faire. Which is just fine by me. I got to hang out with Amy at the hot tub waiting for everyone else to arrive. She plays a fool, Keena(spelling unknown), at CRF and is most often found on her head telling bad jokes. She's been doing the Rennie Life since her first year at CRF, 2004, where I first met her. She's a fantastic woman, and it was nice to get to know her a little better. Chris and I had a patron come up to us and request that we sing Seven Drunken Nights. This season is really shaping up to be an awesome one for me.

Now if only I could get the weekdays to not suck so much. Aye, there's the rub.

as i went home on a sunday night...

Lord Captain Julien Grey


Man, but don't I look smashing?

Monday, October 23, 2006

Slacker!

I really am. At least when it comes to this blog. But I tend to get out of touch with the world during the Ren-Fest season. Wear myself out during the weekend and zombie my way through the week. The festival is great, though. The kids are alright, but, being a bunch of teenagers, they can get on my nerves just a bit. It's also difficult getting the kids to respect me like they do Chris. Chris was the Sarge. Teacher, mentor, guy-to-listen-to. I'm the new guy, so to speak. So it's a lot harder to get them to listen to me. Maybe because I don't particularly want to dress them down off stage. I guess I'm still used to not having to do so. In the past, the Royal Guard/Pike Troope was made up entirely of adults. And on top of that, adults under the head of someone else. On stage, I was the captain. Back stage, someone else was responsible for everyone's behavior. Now I'm both Stage Manager AND Captain. If this were a real Guard, they'd listen or get the crap beat out of them for insubordination. Can't quite do that now. Oh well. If that's the only real complaint I have, I think I've got it pretty good.

I got a new shirt. Wow, isn't that exciting. I started thinking about getting a red shirt earlier this year. Grey and red are Captain Grey's "colors" but I've always had just a white shirt. No plans to get rid of the white one, though, because it still looks very good. And it's cotton, so nice and breathable. The new shirt is red silk. And man is it pretty. Grey is a Lord, after all, a Baron. He should have some nicer clothes. I made a leap in that direction with his doublet from a couple of years ago, a nice corduroy with silver braid accents and detachable sleeves. And The suede doublet I have now is very much lordly. And now I have a nice upper class shirt. It's the hotness. I'll get some pictures next weekend and post. But now, I have a few pictures of the kids to share with everyone! Yay!





Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Looooong week. And some change.

Wow. What a week. And some days. So.

My last post was made just after getting home from Dress Rehearsal weekend. Which went well enough, if really warm. But this past weekend, opening weekend, went fabulously. I need to remember to grab my camera to take a few pictures of the Royal Guard, and everyone else. But those kids are awesome. I don't know if I've elaborated on the kids, so I'm gonna do that. These are former students that Chris taught in his Leadership Academy at Imani Institute. These are underpriveleged kids who would never have really been able to experience the Renaissance Festival otherwise. But being Chris' kids, they're all very disciplined. Lani has (and still is, grumble grumble) made some very sharp costumes for the guys to wear. People in the cast keep coming up to Chris and me telling us how impressed they are, how great the kids are. We couldn't be more pleased with the reaction. And being, technically, production staff, we don't really have to listen to other people when they try to tell us what to do or not to do. We usually do, but only because 1) it's a legitimately good idea that's been proposed or 2) to play along and keep the waters from being too stirred up. But I've denied people, much to their chagrin (only 24 years old? What does he know?! Punk kid!), their petty power struggles on more than one occassion. Because I can. I answer to myself, Rob and Jeff. Rob being the Entertainment Director and Jeff being the Mighty Owner Guy of the whole thing.

Work's been work, but continues to be a lot less stressful and a lot more fulfilling. Especially since I don't have Scott Horton leaning heavily over my shoulder all day, every day. If he's the Manager on Deck, he'll walk about checking on the department, but it's a pain in the ass to come all the way out to Car Fi from the Manager's Bridge on the opposite corner of the store, so his visits are rare. Some days he'll get a wild hair up his ass and spend many a circuit passing Car Fi when I'm on shift, no doubt looking for something to get on my case about. Meh. I do more than my share keeping the numbers up, and Jimmy knows it. So I've got some relative immunity.

Speaking of work, I've taken to walking to and/or from work, instead of getting Chris or Lani to drive me. Not often, and usually only when I can't get a ride. But I think I might do it as a matter of fact, barring foul weather. The absolutely amazing doublet Kae made for me is a little tighter around the middle than it should be, and I need to fix that. Because I have put on a little size in the last 6-7 months. Faire will help that. I get into a mode where I eat less and do more. Which I really wish I had kept up a little better than I did. But I've been stuck in a long bout of apathy about my physical condition. Heartbreak does that to me. But it's been months. I really should have shaken myself out of it sooner, but laziness, apathy, etc. Yadda yadda yadda. Fixing it. My khakis are already fitting better and the XL Best Buy Blue Polo of Blue fits a lot better than it did four weeks ago when I first went back to Car Fi. I just need an accelerant. Like liposuction. Heh.

Back to opening weekend! The weather was awesome. For me. A lot of other people weren't happy with it. But they weren't blessed with Northern European genes that were made to handle cold and misty/rainy days. I was a little miffed that I didn't have my cloak, though. Not because I was cold and wet, but because I want to make sure I don't damage the doublet. It's suede and all. And a labor of love. So I treasure it and keep it in the best condition I can. Also? I need to get a red shirt.

I've been watching too much Stargate SG1. Damn you, torrent files. Damn you to hell!

caaaaaan...anybo-deeeeeee...find meee-heee-heee...somebody too-hoo....looooooooove

Monday, October 02, 2006

One Year

I remember. I will always remember. I will always love you.

and the greatest of these is love